Been following a bit and never posted. I just wrote myself about passion drift in my life/career. Your voice spoke to me this morning. Grin like an idiot. I’ve never owned a corvette but I’ve always wanted one, it doesn’t seem practical with a wife and two kids, one headed to an expensive college shortly.
As I said in the article, it doesn't have to be a Corvette. It can be something smaller that you've denied yourself either because you think it's not worth the money objectively, or you think it might be too silly.
I'm a huge classic Trek geek. In addition to that model of the Enterprise I have very high quality reproductions of the classic phaser, tricorder, and communicator on my shelves. :)
Find your thing and allow yourself to have (or do) it.
"You’ve just built a more organized cage." and "I’m not that man anymore. I did the work. I’m allowed to be here." hit for me. While I know I've earned the right to be who I am, I still feel unqualified a lot of the time - I'm overlooked in my career, I'm not fought for in relationships. I have to make future me proud today, that's it. I have more guitars than is reasonable, a black Volvo and a ruby Harley Dyna in the garage - they all make me grin, but only partly. I'm still willfully walking into my cage, cleaning it up, not allowing myself to let loose, staying buttoned up because it should feel safe. But it doesn't. It feels like hopelessness. It feels like a more organized cage - but the door is open, and I can walk through the door to open spaces. I need to... I need to.
Been following a bit and never posted. I just wrote myself about passion drift in my life/career. Your voice spoke to me this morning. Grin like an idiot. I’ve never owned a corvette but I’ve always wanted one, it doesn’t seem practical with a wife and two kids, one headed to an expensive college shortly.
As I said in the article, it doesn't have to be a Corvette. It can be something smaller that you've denied yourself either because you think it's not worth the money objectively, or you think it might be too silly.
I'm a huge classic Trek geek. In addition to that model of the Enterprise I have very high quality reproductions of the classic phaser, tricorder, and communicator on my shelves. :)
Find your thing and allow yourself to have (or do) it.
"You’ve just built a more organized cage." and "I’m not that man anymore. I did the work. I’m allowed to be here." hit for me. While I know I've earned the right to be who I am, I still feel unqualified a lot of the time - I'm overlooked in my career, I'm not fought for in relationships. I have to make future me proud today, that's it. I have more guitars than is reasonable, a black Volvo and a ruby Harley Dyna in the garage - they all make me grin, but only partly. I'm still willfully walking into my cage, cleaning it up, not allowing myself to let loose, staying buttoned up because it should feel safe. But it doesn't. It feels like hopelessness. It feels like a more organized cage - but the door is open, and I can walk through the door to open spaces. I need to... I need to.
Thanks so much for sharing that Michael. I think you'd find some of my other essays helpful.
These in particular might speak to you:
https://www.theredeemedsecondhalf.com/p/nothing-will-work-for-you-until-this
https://www.theredeemedsecondhalf.com/p/you-are-not-your-wounds
https://www.theredeemedsecondhalf.com/p/how-to-carry-the-past-without-being
Thank you Vic. I’m reading, listening, and taking notes! Much appreciated.
I’m grinning 😁
Glad to hear it, Chris!